Watson reveals 'lowest point' at start of 2012

ESPN staff
December 23, 2012
Heather Watson climbed into the world's top 50 this season © PA Photos

Heather Watson has enjoyed a hugely successful season, but the British No. 1 admits she often feels desperately lonely and has struggled to fit in on the WTA Tour.

Watson has enjoyed a breakthrough season, becoming the first British woman since Sara Gomer in 1988 to win a WTA title and climbing into the world's top 50 for the first time.

But Watson has revealed she fell out of love with tennis at the beginning of 2012, when she suffered a dip in form and even struggled to get out of bed in the mornings.

"Lots of times I feel quite lonely," Watson told the Telegraph. "I just want to go home and see everybody, because I hardly get to see my friends and family during the season. It's really tough, always living out of a suitcase or in a hotel. Playing your match, then going straight back to your hotel room - you're on your own a lot.

"I went on a four-match losing streak, which had never happened to me before. I just got really depressed, and unhappy, and every morning I thought, 'Oh, I just don't want to play. I don't want to get out of my bed'.

"I went through a really bad period. Eventually I managed to get myself out of it, with a decent week in Miami. But it was one of the lowest points I've ever had playing tennis.

"There was a big change in my demeanour. I was losing and I just thought to myself, 'What's the point?' I got super-negative. It was a big struggle, awful in fact. This is what I love to do every day, what I want to do. So when you hate it, it just doesn't seem right."

Watson revealed her decision to remove her mother from her coaching team helped her focus.

"Sometimes it's better for my mum just to be a mum, rather than trying to coach and getting too closely involved," Watson said. "It was essentially us just arguing all the time. That didn't help my mental state. By myself, I'm able to focus much better.

"Say if you're travelling with somebody, you're dependent - I wouldn't even need to think about which gate I had to be at for a flight, because she would already be there. Left to your own devices, you're conscious of everything, and that's why I found it easier to be professional."

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